Wrap Things Up?

Friend: It's a little unfair and selfish, when you make the decision, and you get the head start. You have the advantage. The advantage of letting go earlier, even though I had already imagined this as a result. The advantage of planning out the reasons/excuses, even though I had already thought of some. The advantage of having things processed already, while I am still processing, and still trying to understand. Why are there still so many questions? How come I am so stuck? So attached? Is it just me? ... But I suppose this does wrap things up. Wrap things up, as it is nearing the end of the year anyway. After wondering for so long, after all this time, there is finally some answer. So this is how everything settles. This is the feeling of being swept off your feet and lifted up high, then dropped down, alone. It's probably because of the timing, but it feels like I'm losing many things all at once. And patience and time seems wasted. Please be more considerate from now on. Well, I suppose we start building things up in the other direction now... But I'm still finding the silver lining. It is easier said than done.

GGM: I had only met you once, and we had spent limited time together, but we are connected. R.I.P.

Myself: Just keep on smiling.

Listening to: Lee Hom Wang 王力宏 - 心跳

加油, 欣怡!

命中注定我愛你, my show of the summer. =) I caught up with it weekly until school got the best of me. Haha. And now I've finished it! =) Ah... it was pretty awesome! It was so cute and sweet in so many parts!... and so sad in so many parts!... but that's drama!

It may be because the main female character's name was the same as mine (supposedly one of the most common/ordinary chinese names... o_O), but I felt a little sympathy with her, especially at the beginning before she "changed". The show made her seem pretty pathetic at times... I wouldn't want to be constantly controlled and used. But I liked her personality. She was always so nice to others, although sometimes too nice. She always tried to be considerate and helpful, always following orders without ever expressing her disapprovals or any personal opinions. However, her kindness would just be used and taken advantage of. Anyway, it made me think... Can I be too nice? Would others even appreciate it? These questions I have thought about before, and yes, sometimes I feel that I'm too nice and my efforts are under-appreciated. Maybe I'm still naive, but I feel that some people should be more considerate of others. The world does not revolve around one person. But I am what I am. I can't help that I am willing to be what I am towards others, even with doubts. It is usually afterwards, after thinking, when I realize things and wonder if something was even worth my consideration and efforts. Maybe what is needed is some self-confidence and courage to stand up for yourself, when the chance is there. Belief. Strength. The 欣怡 in the show eventually learned. =)

Press on!

Ambrosia

... is:

Starbucks' Peppermint Mocha Twist

also:

Starbucks' Hazelnut Hot Chocolate

MMM... :)